I am so exhausted. All the doctor appointments, research and talk of health and disease is really beginning to get to me. It's starting to mess with my mind and play tricks on me.

The new diet is helping, but it's so hard to stick to. Especially without any real support from my family. Cooking for only myself is annoying and unmotivating. Going out to eat is almost impossible with them, because the places they like have nothing on the menu that I can eat. So I end up compromising, and I end up feeling sick afterwards. It's a vicious cycle. I miss The Compound. I feel like everyone there was so much more supportive and helpful than my family is. I feel like they are tolerating me and all this mess, and underneath the toleration they are just thinking that it must all be in my head.

Official Sucky Day

Long Dr. appointment today. We ruled out any thyroid problems, which is a big, big bummer. Narrowed it down to two other possibilities. Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome and Endomitriosis. Still have to rule out cervical problems, but everyone is pretty sure that's not the source of the problem. Sucky. I have symptoms of both. More of Endomitriosis, which of course is the harder of the two to diagnose. Can't be diagnosed without an exploratory surgical procedure (minor, but still). Now begins the long series of tests, exams, and shitty procedures. Next steps are:

-Blood work, Pap and Colposcopy.
-Vaginal/Pelvic Ultrasound
-Laparoscopy

Oh. And I found out at my other Dr. appointment today that I have some wisdom teeth that have to come out ASAP.

Shitty. All I feel like doing at the moment is getting baked, but I can't even do that, because I have to get blood work done tomorrow.